User blog:ThrownawayCoffeeMug/Is there a gender where your depression specifically impacts it?

So I have Major Depressive Disorder and Persistent Depressive Disorder, and it greatly impacts me throughout my daily life. I know my gender (Mosaic or Trans-Mosaic), but it feels like a part of my identity is my depression due to just having it my whole life. It's like I go from being Mosaic to an inhuman monster every day. It's kind of like I become a creature that is desperately trying to pretend to be human when it happens. Is there a word or identity for this?

If there is, I have a flag that I made to represent what I feel: