User:Milky jirin aeris



i've left im;; sorry i'm sorry it's just too much n ilysm, okie? i'll be okay. if i could give you all of the love you deserved i would, i would, i would. no matter how broken or unloveable or disgusting you find yourself, i promise you that you deserve to be loved n that you're precious nd. that you did ;; absolutely nothing wrong to deserve to feel like this. okay? you're okay.

goodbye !! <3333333333333333 *infinite, infiniteinfinite hugs*

hi! i'm a genderfae (maybe faesari? aaa why is this so confusing) lunarian and sometimes lunettian. i use she/her, ae/aer, it/its, nd nim/nam/nair, and you can call me milky! so. um. here!

names

 * milky(/milkie!)
 * ni (sometimes)
 * spare
 * astrian/astelian
 * eventide

likes

 * people <3
 * my friends!!
 * my squooshes n my fluffs ♡
 * glottal stops
 * the smell of books and baking bread
 * rain
 * music
 * pianos
 * strawberry tea with evaporated milk stirred into it
 * warm milk foam and soft lights
 * fluffy blankets
 * oversized sweaters
 * floofy rabbits :o
 * throwing waffles
 * hiding in corners
 * running away
 * the smell of creamy coffee
 * poems that nobody knows
 * poems that everybody knows
 * things that sound and feel like poems
 * cold drizzles and warm thunderstorms
 * waiting for someone in the rain
 * things out-of-place, misplaced, where they shouldn't be but they are and it looks very beautiful.
 * long capey sweaters :DDD *swooSh*
 * studio ghibli !!
 * pockets! n putting little things in pockets, like plants or stuffed animals or tiny pet rabbits or moonstone pendants or books or food or a tiny waffle maker :,>>>
 * tiny little books
 * "runaway" by aurora; "ev*ryth*ng i w*nt*d" & "your power" by billie eilish
 * aurora n may other!! favorite artists in general ;A;
 * "a silent voice" !!
 * floomfy things nd nice words !! s o pr   Et Ty <33

dislikes (tw// v**l*nce, s*/f h*rm, negative emotions)
☁ also people

☁ myselfffffffffff -

☁ being forced to speak

☁ when i can't do anything to help/being useless

☁ intrusive thoughts

☁ norman (bOoO yOu, nOrman >:0)

☁ mean people :<

☁ when people hurt eachother or hurt themselves

☁ violence

☁ guilt

☁ sadness/melancholy

☁ norman again (yOu mAde tHE liSt tWicE, nOrmAn D:<<)

☁ also greg

(more soon!!)

^picking up the music player someone dropped^
☁ everything i wanted, billie eilish ☁ runaway, AURORA ☁ your power, billie eilish ☁ remember when, wallows ☁ nocturne no. 2 in e flat, opus 9, chopin ☁ merry-go-round of life, joe hisaishi ☁ talia, king princess ☁ love is a warmth not a fire, esthie ☁ her, shiloh dynasty and vowl ☁ my future, billie eilish ☁ gymnopedie 1, erik satie ☁ the name of life, joe hisaishi ☁ line without a hook, ricky montgomery ☁ up all night, khalid ☁ life goes on, bts ☁ b-tches broken hearts, billie eilish ☁ less i know the better, tame impala ☁ happiness is a butterfly, lana del rey ☁ gimme love, joji ☁ are you lost, park bird ☁ pursuit of happiness, kid cudi ☁ in my life, the beatles ☁ how to never stop being sad, dandelion hands ☁ put your head on my shoulder, paul anka ☁ mr loverman, ricky montgomery ☁ with a smile, eraserheads ☁ a cat is a cat, slide20xx ☁ imagine, shiloh dynasty & vowl ☁ invisible, dandelion hands ☁ i ain't perfect, iv of spades ☁ captivated, iv of spades ☁ earfquake, tyler the creator ☁ put your records on, corinne bailey rae & ritt momney ☁ ☁ awakening, jinsang ☁ gone, gone/thank you, tyler the creator ☁ your power, billie eilish ☁ almost (sweet music), hosier ☁ cherry, rina ☁ villain, stella jang ☁ praying, kesha ☁ transparent soul, willow ☁ outta my mind, monsune ☁ xs, rina ☁ exist for love, AURORA ☁ best part, H.E.R. ☁ damn right, audrey nuna ☁ evening wind, joe hisaishi ☁ i will wait for you to come home, kupla ☁ you n' i, rainlord ☁ lovely, billie eilish ☁ stfu, rina (good for reading infuriating things or interacting with bigoted people!!) ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁  ☁

more soon ☁

books & authors
☁ ocean vuong, "a letter to my mother that she will never read" ☁ tove jansson, "moominvalley in november" ☁ sherman alexie, "the completely true diary of a part-time indian" ☁ se hinton, "the outsiders" ☁ ernest hemingway, "the old man and the sea" ☁ tove jansson, "moominland midwinter" ☁ haruki murakami, "the elephant vanishes" ☁ (etc. more added later!)

movies/films/games/cinema/thingys that i like!!
☁ grave of the fireflies. (ghibli). it's my favorite movie, n when i first watched it i sobbed for hours afterword hysterically n didn't stop crying over it for three weeks. i'm never ever ever watching it again, but it's just an amazing n impossibly, indescribably sad film. and it's really important. please please watch it, if you aren't triggered by           [w*r, st*rvation, *rph*ns, b*mbs, th**very, p*lice, v*ol*nce, *nger, d*ath, gr*ef, crying, p*in, *llness, t*xic relatives, f*mily, fr*gs and other animals, phys*cal wounds, b*rns, f*re, h*melessness, t*nks, w*rships, s*ffering, s*dness, bl*me, g*ilt, h*pelessness, m*ssed-up society, systemic ab*se, unw*ntedness, p*rents dy*ng, the sides of roads, or any similar triggers]

☁ missed messages, angela he. <3

☁

genders

 * genderfae
 * girlflux
 * genderfluid
 * multiflux!! (:000 such wOw tErm >:C)
 * i'm a moonstone collector!! :DD
 * enby
 * lunarian
 * lunettian
 * juxera
 * faesari
 * faesariflux
 * fenby
 * girlby
 * neutrois
 * novarian
 * maverique
 * fingender
 * agender (sometimes, n usually only partially)
 * female
 * aporagender
 * stellarian (usually not fully!! demi-stellarian?)
 * erisian
 * creamic
 * kenochoric
 * soffgender (sdfghjkgheywujhrfg i made this mysElf *is proud ;w;*)
 * sleepyleite
 * soft-stormgender
 * blanketgender
 * softie-rainic (D: hHHh i love this too much *cryngiNg*)
 * milkian
 * genderfvck
 * cloudgender

orientation ♡ (hhHHH such a pretty heart!! i stole it from somewhere online :D)
♡ homoflexible-platoniromantic (*cOnFusiOn* ;w;) jsdhsjdhgsiosdfbhuewuiodsiuo halp pigeons hath thefed my brAin ;W; *soft branless sOobs*

♡philoromantic browntian/lesbian/sapphic? :0 n physically, a varioriented bambi-ish lesbian!! ♡

i'm also alloromantic!! & *ahem* ♡w Ha M en♡ n ♡enbies♡ & i'm omniqp ♡

terms coined ;U; *p r i dE*
soffgender

moonstone collector (<33)

sunstone collector

starrystone collector

mist-soupian (<3333)

neptuniflux

saturniflux

uraniflux

springsgender

flousoi

flouxoi

flouesoi

sleepyleite (<33)

milkian

softie-rainic (<3333)

also i make flaGS!! ahAHEFIGUWCYUTDWisouakhnv fyDFGOULJBHVGJcfxydufyiguhli *i have so much pixelart saved n i'm r e ady* *squoomfles in happ aesthetic C:*

aesthetics

 * after hours
 * light academia
 * pastel aesthetic
 * milky aesthetic
 * softie aesthetic
 * mist/fog
 * dreamy
 * moon aesthetic
 * bunnycore
 * a bit of cottagecore, &
 * some dark academia

fun facts

 * could probably cut down a mackerel with a tree. a small tree, though :>
 * biracial (se asian-white), chaotic good, infp, likes the idea of anarchism but doesn't trust human nature enough to believe in it
 * needs help just in general
 * really wants to be a nomad
 * makes feeble life choices :D
 * will start an indie band composed of three quails and myself, named "my eyebrow. those unraveling mint dragons,"
 * has joined the pangolins!! >:>>>>
 * b r i n g  m e   t h e   r i c e
 * i know morse :C
 * infp;; numerology sign 2;; pisces rising;;
 * i'm questioning whether or not i'm in a median system with a thingie/person who may also be myself?? called nyx. ; ^ ; *sOBs*
 * i'm also!! poc and live in america, if you're confused! ;W;
 * "squoomfling" is technically hallouween themed, because no one here knows what it means :D n anWAy since 'tis unknown;; it's scary, because "the scariest thing to the mind is the unknown".  sO aM THE MONARCH OF HALLOWE'EN >:CCCCC *hiswbIFEUdhWOIEFIudw happ ;n;*

triggers n squicks D: (& other things)
[triggers]                 ***             (in order of intensity)

-l*ly of the v*ll*y

-kn*ves with green h*ndles

-being forced medication

- sugarcrash! by elyotto

- when a lot of people are feeling a lot of negative things at once in one place

- very angry people/intense-ish anger

- intrusive thoughts

- the phrase "i understand- completely." specifically that!! i like being understood, n people telling me "i understand" ;w; but that specific phrase is just veryveryevery nu no adfdsfgdhsgshahngshsdhdsajhej

- the book lol*ta (i)

- s*lf h*rm, but very very mildly

-s*x*al things (hhhHHh im not proud of myself anymore!! it got worse ;U;)

[squicks]:

- triggers like p*ed*phili* & r*p*

- anything to do with m* (y) b*d* (o, y)

- c*nnibalism

- typing the word "i"; but also only mildly nd is vERy unavoidable

- also!! i regress, nd i try not to do it on here; but if i ever do - pronouns = nim/nam/naer & she/her, and names = buttery, ricecake, n milkie.

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spirit animal
a small slice of bread. maybe even a concert pianist!

irl friends

 * jerry the r̶a̶b̶b̶i̶t̶ rose
 * planty the potted plant
 * my thumb with a face drawn onto it
 * my other fingers with faces drawn on them :DD
 * email = aerimousse@gmail.com (n there's more;; i hAve sO mAnY gMaiLs hhhhhHHh *tear*)
 * (note: im really sorry;; all of my gmails are out-of-use-now because they're blocked on my sch**l chromebook n my computer has been taken ;A; you can still mw me, though!! sdrFTUGYIHU i keep forgetting mws exists *more cry* il you impossibly kind n happy-feelings beings so much <333)
 * (note 2! if you want to contact me, try melk.stel@gmail.com! mUhehEHehehHEhehee new mystery email >:>> (but note-inside-of-note [note-ception? :00] i also might not be on there so much because something happened on my school gmail with a classmate n long story short sort of a little bit vague trigger for  i mMe n S e  (undiagnosed!)  so ci al    a n xi e Ty    s Y m P to M s   hHHhhh-) )

commonly asked questions:
a: nothing !! (or maybe undiagnosed social anxiety n clinical/major depressive disorder. but undiagnosed!! undiagnosed )

q: ^where are you?^

a: on the moon, hopefully. probably not, though. so!! im usually in spixity's attic, in a little house with a river n ricecakes n a cat, some nice ocean traintracks or a rainy pavillion, on my mw if you need anything ever, or wandering around doing nomad things, throwing waffles, n being a nomad in general. in short, everywHere. and nowhere!! all at the same time. (but sadly i live in america near a city ;w;)

q: ^what do you want for dinner?^

a: ^hhHhhHhhh im fine with anything *sweats* ;A;^

important links
https://pronouny.xyz/u/%5Emilkie%5E

note to memoryless future self: put cj bo burnham video *here* ;; steal braincell for memory retention :D

nemesisesises

 * nOrmaN >>:,CCCCCCCC
 * the eleven-eleven wish people who don't have chocolate ;A;
 * qu**rphobes
 * dave the ghost
 * norman again *cri*
 * the stupid number angels who keep planting their numbers everywhere >:C *shakes fist* (not the nice angels like the one thingie shaped like a wheel with eyes, [;u;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;,,,,,,] or my fren em)

allies/frAnds (sign :D)

 * pangolins!
 * poets
 * small raindrops
 * more soon? am forgetting D:
 * society of lowercase typers
 * "eDnA i'M loSt D,: "
 * world-take-overy people
 * vampires!! :DDD (with albany)
 * society of people who have no sleep schedules ;c;
 * .sign?
 * reign
 * reign but spicy
 * reign again
 * have i mentioned that reign loves milky vv much and is always there for her?
 * tj has joine the pangolin army, we march at dawn
 * g o a t s

sign here too !
table i took from lyric, and bird i stole from lucky's neighborhood !! :

┬──┬ (hhHh much high quality table-)

(･Θ･) <-- birby: i call stel "leopold" and he likes to sit next to the table, like this:  (･Θ･)┬──┬

(*gAsp* 2 tables?? 2 leopolds?? oHgOSH i hAVE a mAgic tElepOrtiNg birD & tAble ;v;,)

heyyy it's ari here! just popping round to confirm that this person is incredible and therefore must be treated with immense respect and consideration - they're a quality five star being that doesn't deserve to put up with any bu*****t. So don't give it to them, please

* cry* oHmYpiGeoNs thank you <3333 that's incredibly amazingly sploondiferous of you to say -milkie

i am eating bread right now. just thought you should know. - aVerY (aka thatkokichisimp)

* gAsp* t hi s is vEry important information n i'm jealous now <33 /nm /pos -milky :>

-milkie, non-professional abysm lingerer, lost items here, title switcher, tea-bringing moon dragon n hopeful waffle nomad :D

Hello!!! I hope we can be friends! I see you around everywhere ♡♡♡ you seem sooo cute!-Keels(ps my name is ConfuzzledBean!

hello !! just came here to say you are v cool

hewuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <33 - reign

Crazy Frog is annoying but his music isn't that bad though. hello idk what im talkin about but ur cool -That dog with headphones