Hi my name is lex and i am nonbinary (they/them) and am very comfortable with that label, it's my sexuality that's the problem.
Over the past few years i have gone from bisexual, to bisexual aromantic, to bisexual graysexual aromantic, to lesbian, to asexual lesbian, to only problem is that i think i like men romantically, but im never sure, and i have a hard time with romance bc i am very depressed and have no self compassion, so i dont even know if i feel romance. but i do want to date someone. i am currently in an online relationship with a girl.
I dont want to have sex. ever. it terrifies me. i dont think im gonna like it in any way. i have never thought "i want to have sex with this person" the only time that ever happened was in a dream.
I do enjoy looking at girls bodies though. a lot. i even get turned on by it. but i never want to have sex with them.
And i could picture myself in a relationship with a man or a nonbinary person. i could. but i dont find them sexy.
This is just so confusing for me and idek anymore. i just need help.