Okay, how the fuck do you stop being dysphoric? I'm trying to listen to Boys Will Be Bugs which is usually a comfort song but it's not working. I'm crying and I hate that because boys don't cry as easily but I cry over EVERYTHING. Why is my body female? Why do I have to have skinny wrists? Why is my face so round? I hate everything that looks feminine and I cant escape it. I feel like my body is a prison that I have to live in for four more years before I get out. I feel like suicide is the only way OUT. This entire life is a lie and I know 4 years isnt that long but it feels like FOREVER. I just want to be able to be me and I feel so guilty for being jealous of those with supportive parents. Yes I'm happy for you and I'm glad you have a family who will support you and let your transition but I DONT. And I'm jealous that you have that and that youre allowed to be yourself and I'm stuck being everything I'm not. I hate this so much...