How do I know I'm not just a silly girl? I just wish I had a friend to talk to about my gender. I hate my body and my chest gives me massively bad vibes, I hate my name, and I hate being called a girl. But I hear all these stories about girls who transitioned and then regretted it, so now I just feel like a freak. I want to be a boy. Why couldn't I just have been born a boy?! Why can't I cut my hair? Why can't I talk to my parents about it? Why won't they get me a therapist like they said they would months ago? Why am I so ugly? Why can't I have a deeper voice? Why am I like this? I just feel so icky.