So as you see I get heated like, SUPER fast when arguing, reason why is because it’s sort of a reflex when I think I’m going to get hurt by words, sometimes it happens, other times it doesn’t but I get in a defensive aggressive (dare i say rabid) state where I am very emotionally sensitive because I just got one of my triggers pulled, and it gets me in to a state of panic, and I constantly jump on whatever it is because my brain is drugged up on anxiety and makes me defensive because of that anxiety taking the wheel. What happened to cause this I rather not talk about.
And so I’m gonna be backing out of this site and stuff for a long time because for one I need to relax and two I’m not helping the situation at hand and three I rather not be in a place where I can constantly get one of my triggers hit and be spiraled into a panic attack. So yeah you can say it’s a hiatus but I’m done for now, I’m shaking, I’m stressed, I feel like I’m cornered. I’m sorry but I’m heading out to take a break.
Cya I guess, even if I’m not friends with anyone here.