(Mention of pedofilia child abuse rape doxing suicide self harm so again if you get triggered by these things please don't read)
I'm already shaking and on the verge of a panic attack thinking about thinking about this because just thinking about this whole thing terrifies me so i'm putting another warning here if you get triggered by any of the things above please don't continue reading and even if you don't this is a really sensitive topic so please if you start getting uncomfortable reading this just stop because I qarentiee it only gets worse
So this was a while ago I was staying up with my friend at the time I was in the chair and she was on top of me cuddled up against me while I was looking for something to watch on youtube and then I seen that one of my favorite channels just went live so I joined and when I joined the live she was talking about this website she wasn't saying the name of it because she didn't want her viewers to get on it because its a really bad website anyway she was talking about how pedophiles go to that website to get advice on raping children abusive parents went on there to get advice on abusing their kids and there was a petition to get this website taken down in the live chat so I left and signed it but instead of going back on the live I decided to do some digging on the website and I fucking regret looking into this website because what I found made me sick so when I was looking into this website I found the link to the website and my dumbass FUCKING CLICKED THE FUCKING LINK and what I seen looking through this website even thinking about it makes me sick and I can't go into much detail without me getting triggered so sorry if some of this is really vague but there where videos of kids getting raped parents beating there kids abusive parents getting advice on how to control their kids pedophiles wanting advice on the best way to kidnap and rape children and there was a warning saying if you try to say something other then getting advice on that stuff or "posting results" you would get doxed and the same thing would happen to you and the shit I seen on there drove me to the point of suicide I went into one of these episodes where I tried hurting myself my friend at the time stopped me before anything to bad happened but I remember the blood running down my arms and my friend instead of comforting me she said if I did anything like this again she's going to do worse to herself and when she said that everything started spinning and what scares me about the whole thing is that these type of people keep making these websites every time they get taken down another one just pops up and i'm afraid these people will find out where I live and do the same thing to me and then my friend didn't make anything better but sometimes after the situation went down I felt like ive been watched but Its probly just my imagination