I’m scared to live in my own house, I’m scared to reach out to people, I’m scared to disappoint anyone. Last Friday I self harmed, I told myself that’s the last time, I’ll be clean for a long time now, then last night ruined me. Out of nowhere my mom screamed at me, for no good reason. Now today she haven’t talked to me at all. I’m afraid to go downstairs so I’m in my room right now. She’s taking away my phone and my computer. I won’t be able to text my girlfriend, I won’t be able to call anyone for help. I’m going to be completely alone, I won’t have anyone. I don’t know what she’s going to do to me. I don’t know if she’s going to ship me away, I don’t know what’s going to happen to me, I just want to die already, I want the pain to be over, I want to end it all. I’m so confused and depressed right now. Nobody is here for me, nobody cares. If she could only see it from my perspective if she could see I’m not just a disrespectful kid, if she could feel my pain. If she could feel the burn of having no friends, of having to deal with her not understanding my identity, my gender, who I am. I’m so lost I don’t know what to do. Please. Someone. Help.