So im bi and i dont know if its because of my past trama with a sertain female and maibe its just me being paranoid but i fell like i love women and there beutifull and i have like fallen head to toe over girls but i hate the idea of doind anything sexual with one and it makes me sick , as i sayed i do have trama but for men i likes its different and yeah i have never been sexual with a male but i fell like i would do sexual things with one and idk if that normal ? or maibe im actualy straght since my mom has called other women beutifull and maibe whati had felt for women was just admiration ? but it felt different so what would i be i fell like i like men in a sexual way but women it different i fell so happy warm and i fell buterflyes in my stomach but i dont want to be sexual with one please help