Me: So this person was my whole world. Like they WERE my entire self worth. Everything revolved around them, and then i forgot what happened but I just turned on them and started saying some really horrible things to them and I'm like why why would i-
My therapist: I'm going to interrupt you there. It seem like you had an expectation for that person. And when they couldn't meet that need, you made them feel as bad as you felt because you felt like they wronged you for not giving you those needs even when it was impossible for them to do so.
Me, who's been wondering why i did what i did for months: ......well frick-