good morning. or afternoon, or night, or 5 am.
i had a really really crazy,,,conversation last night
and i wanted to share what happened
and what i got from that?
okay?
i don't know who i was talking to
it was someone
maybe it was imagination
the clock said 1 am
but i don't know
felt real
anyways, i was kind of freaking out
when am i not? yknow?
that i'm not worth it
and that they don't really care
but my freaking out is just making them
think less of me
so this person i was talking to
laughed
(i was a bit offended)
and said
"it's not always about you."
"uh, what?"
"i mean that in the best way possible."
"explain, please?"
"you think that maybe- maybe your friends are mad
at you. because of the way they talk. the way
they act. the way they type. it's 'not normal',
as you say."
they took a pause, and started again.
"people have lives, you know. things happen
in those lives. things that didn't involve you.
things that made them sad
or mad, that you don't know about.
maybe they just lost a really important game
or maybe they got into an argument
with somebody. and they're still mad about
that. they're still sad about that."
pause.
"and if they come to you, feeling mad, or sad, don't always think
it's your fault. because, yeah,
maybe it is. maybe you did something
but i think you're a good person
and you wouldn't do it on purpose
i mean, maybe
but i don't think so."
pause.
"it's not always about you."