Hey. I’m Keke and I use she / her pronouns. I know I’m not on here often, but I need some advice.
Putting it short, I bought a rainbow flag online, it’s arriving soon and I am still in the closet. Well, not really. I feel like I’ve never really been in a closet, and besides I have a walk in closet so I come out every day. Okay that was a joke (even though it’s true). I just never thought sexual orientations were a big deal, regardless of what mine might be. I’m probably the most open minded person you’ll ever meet so there has never been even a hint of homophobia in my head. My parents and other family members are as open minded and I know for a fact that they are nothing but supportive of lgbt+. Still, I don’t really want to come out when that flag arrives (which I’m honestly so excited about), because even though I act like I don’t care about my sexuality, it is something deeply personal and I feel like it’s none of your business who I’m attracted to. But I’m also proud of my sexual orientation, which is probably pan, but I prefer not using a label, which makes things even more complicated. And yes, I really want to shout it of the rooftops quite often actually. Like now. But I’m also scared that I’ll regret it if I randomly start singing about how much I like girls, when I’m in a yolo mood and I just don’t really care about anything but the next second. And I hate personal conversations. And I try to avoid them as much as possible. So yes, I want to come out, but not as anything and I also don’t really think it’s necessary and I don’t want to have conversations about it. Now my rainbow flag is coming and I don’t know what to do anymore.
Also, I’ve dropped a million hints to my parents (my mom caught them once, we had an awkward conversation and then I stopped dropping hints) so I can’t pretend to have bought it for other reasons. Please help.