I'm aromantic. I'm 100% certain of that. I don't understand romantic attraction at all and things like getting married or sleeping in the same bed or any of that stuff don't appeal to me.
I do, on the other hand, like some other romantically coded things-- holding hands, living together, maybe even adopting a kid together. But I want to do them like,,, queerplatonically? But not quite queerplatonically.
I guess I kinda want a relationship that blurs the line between platonic and romantic, but not queerplatonic. Because queerplatonic is "an extension of platonic attraction" whereas I want something that's just a little bit more than queerplatonic. Not quite a soft romo or anything, because I'm definitely aromantic. And I don't really think alterous relationships are a thing, that's usually just called queerplatonic or soft romo.
I just want someone (probably just one person, but maybe more if it was a triad kind of thing where we were all in a relationship together) who I could live with and love slightly more than platonically but not romantically. Which is confusing.
*cries in tertiary attraction is so hecking confusing*