tw !! physical violence, emotional violence (??), fighting/yelling, cussing, caps, death threats (??), mentions of mental hospitals
btw,, my sibling's pronouns are it/its so i hope this doesnt get too confusing
for the past few months (probably since quarantine started but i cant remember that far back), my sibling started becoming super violent with me and my sister. i think it got influenced by its friends, but im not too sure. last year in june, we got caught and grounded for having online friends. we're still in trouble, but we have more freedom as of right now i guess. we got our phones/tablets taken away and we all share one ipad at both our mom's and dad's house. this rarely happens at my dad's house, but whenever my sibling would ask for something (for example: a turn on the shared ipad) and not get its way, it would start to hit, scratch, punch, jump on top of, kick, chase, and/or yell at whoever it's asking. it's become way too much recently and im way too weak to fight back.
just a few days ago, i got $20. i showed it the money because i wanted to go to the store and spend the cash with it. it then started chasing me, jumped on top of me, attempted to punch my back and face multiple times, and yell "GIVE ME THE CASH, YOURE SELFISH AND WONT SPEND IT ON ME" - im really not sure why it thought that, since everytime i get cash i spend some of it with my sibling, but it was so painful and i was so exhausted after. this part is a bit childish, but i was the one who ended up getting in trouble since im older and shouldnt be trying to hurt it, even though it was ON TOP of me and i couldnt get off any other way. i felt so misunderstood so i screamed and cried super loudly.
it'll get violent over other stupid things too, like if we're the ones asking for a turn we'll get smacked or something because it's "not done playing" and it "doesnt care what we want" - im so fucking done with it. im trying my best to be the type of person who just lets thing happen and not get mad/feel any other negative emotion over a situation, but when the violence happens it's really tough to just go with it. there have been times where im playing a game and it will start to kick me and ask over and over again for a turn, and ill just talk to my partner ingame and say something like "it's kicking me" or whatever it does to me at the time.
i talk to my partner about what it does to me all the time, and they always give me some type of comfort which im really grateful for. recently, they got into a fight with my sibling and they dont talk to each other anymore, so i cant really talk to them about it anymore because i fear making them uncomfortable when i bring it up.
this vent's already pretty long but i have another quick thing i guess,, it also insults me (and in the past, my partner) whenever it wants. usually every day. ill just be laying down in bed and it'll say "cris i hate you" or "cris go die, you can fucking die" - it also used to say things like that to my partner in a group chat we had which really triggered me. im glad they're no longer friends because that's what was for the best imo. i might regret saying this, but i really wish my sibling was the type of person i could just block and never think about again. i really do mean that sometimes. we do have a love/hate relationship, so we cant stay mad at each other for too long, but i feel like im going to reach my breaking point sometime soon.
additional note i guess,, my mom is also aware of how violent it can get around me and my sister. she might even end up sending it to a mental hospital for a while. im not saying i hope it happens, but a break from it would be nice. im starting to go to my dad's house while it stays at my mom's so hopefully i can feel a little better on the days it isnt there.
im probably going to write one last vent and then get off for the day, im sorry for all the vents recently. i really dont feel like flooding my partner with all of this stuff (since theyre kind of the only person i talk to). it makes me feel a little better that im kind of "anonymous" on here.