At last, I found where to write the post... That in itself was already a rollercoaster lol
To make a long story short, about a year ago, I met this girl on social media. We began daily after I was invited to a group-chat and eventually became really good friends! Jokingly, we made this roleplay group based off of a game, and we decided to get married as two of the male characters that we played.
After some time, the whole group kind of lost their passion to keep up with the roleplay, which is totally acceptable. Though, with that turn of events, that girl and I still kept being flirtatious with each other and did quite a few... ahem... side RPs. We were kind of coined as the "server couple" on multiple servers. Which is fine to me. Time and time again, people would ask us of our relationship status, and we'd both be at a loss with its label.
We would often give each other gifts in form of literature, art, and on a couple occasions, I bought her Discord Nitro. We've exchanged selfies and have VCed several times.
Recently, though, as we were teasing each other, she said that she was unsure of our relationship dynamic. And I guess that kind of struck something within me... I've called her my "Discord girlfriend" on several occasions with not much thought behind those words. Admittedly, we both know that we're hopeless romantics in reality and are (to no avail) searching for a partner.
But for some reason, that split second put me into quite the pickle.
I've always considered myself romantically and sexually attracted to males. Even now, I don't find myself having any semblance of (possibly) any sort of attraction towards to females. Yet, this one girl kind of changed my perspective. I figured that I might only be romantically attracted to females should I know them well enough and be able to open up and trust them (which, for the record, is hard for me to do).
I'm not the one to put a bunch of labels on myself because I fear that it's a misrepresentation of myself. That said, would this be worthy of some kind of term? It's only been one instance, and it could just be me being a possessive freak seeing as it's my first kind-of relationship.
If this is of any help, I identify as a masexual demiboy.
TL;DR - i may or may not like a girl despite knowing that i'm only attracted to men and i don't know if this means something lol
Any and all advice would be greatly appreciated!
Have yourselves a wonderful day/afternoon/night!
~Ace