tw//negative exper*ences about being poc, r*cism, eras*re, genoc*de, n similar triggers.
*inhale*
i feel obnoxious speaking up about social issues like racism n homophobia in places other than here, because people assume i'm angry for no reason and i dOn'T knoW i'm just so frustrated, so it's hard for me to properly explain why. i have this one interesting friend who doesn't understand, and she won't understand. she just thinks i'm being dramatic or want to be hurt and angry, but i'm not. i don't want to be hurt. i don't like being angry and hurt. it's just where i am, and where everything is, and i can't help it. when history books skip over the slaught*r n horribly, disgustingly unfair treatment of the people from my country, i can't help being angry. because it's not right, and because it feels so deeply horrible that no one knows. that it's not even mentioned, as if all of the dead and mistreated people don't matter, that their lives don't matter, that everything they did to fight for freedom and justice and their home and themselves and their families is just forgotten and stupid and when it is brought up, my history teacher says that "wow, look what america has inspired" about freedom revolutions, as if
A. america wasn't an evil, colonizing, genociding slaughtering beast in the stories of so many groups, including that of my country
and b., my people can't fight for themselves; that they have to "learn" from an imperialist country that depicted them so horribly and hatefully and h i just can't say how much it hurts looking at some of the propaganda, it hurts. so. much. n it's not right. it's so wrong, and that's why i'm so mad. it's so indescribably wrong, and it's so indescribably unfair.
so! when i grow up. i'm writing a history book. on the history of my country. n i'm getting people from a bunch of other countries to write their histories. and for american history, i'm getting asian americans and african americans and indigenous americans and middle eastern americans and immigrant americans and hispanic americans and white americans n lgbt+ americans and disabled americans, n i'm writing a proper. book. i'm writing about what people have been through. so people don't have to trudge through sugarcoated horrors and one-sided tales. i'm writing this from everyone's perspective. because i need it, because we can do this and we have to do this and so we will do this, because it's just not fair.
we ride at dawn >:D /gen