Anyways im sorry for posting so much- i just- uh- youll see -inhale- anyways,so you know that one friend who always looks out for the others, and always seems perfectly fine, and just wants to care for their friends? i- just- ARG the way my brian is built is: care for friends = happiness because you know they are ok but- ranting for legit 5 seconds about your emotions you have repressed for who knows how long now just makes you feel like you are stealing the spotlight and are self centered?????????? im sorry but w h a t - brain w h y - so you know how repressing your emotion kinda turns you into a piece of sh*t right? well, the other day on a friend wiki (no i wont link it, its our safe space) i posted something- i just- murderous, to say the least. Maybe sadistic is the right word. but anyways, i said that if the whole us got wiped for whatever reason- I WOULDNT F*CKING CARE-millions- dead- im not even going to try and support myself for saying this. i had a reason, but like, even that reason was sh*t. usually when i say stuff like that i have a reason, but, really? i mean, cmon. i just- i- im working on it. so if you see more vents from me on here, its me trying to fix my problems. trying to get better. Also, i usually will post something wholesome right after that just to draw people away from what ive said, because i dont want them to think that im not ok and i dont want them to worry about me- but ill t r y not to do that. im just- a jumble of emotions right now. i- holy sh*t- oh also i was traveling the other day and lost a stuffie my crush gave me at the hotel and now my gay a** feels super bad- just needed to get that off my chest-
Anyways if you read this for whatever reason, thanks i guess. like i said, im trying to get better, but i also want to help you guys. so, i dont know, but i would like it if someone need help if they go to my wall and asks for help.it makes me think, and if i need to, gets my mind off of the bad things i might be thinking about. thanks