Eeek im sry, I know exactly how you feel it’s like there’s a brick wall there and it’s like “hmmmmm..... should I bust through this literal brick wall between me and misgendering my friend or should I not even though they’re requesting me to break the frickin wall..... hmmmmm”
One of my trans friends isnt out to her d*d and st*pmom, and whenever they pick up the phone, i have to say: "hi, this is *deadname*'s friend *deadname*" because they keep forgetting my number and who i am.