TW// Anx*ety and some of the different symptoms of it [t¡cs ¡nsomnia etc;] (i), cursing, med*cation (i), and par*nts (e)
Ok so there is a lot to explain here-
As some of you may know I have anxiety.
Well as a summary I have come to find out that my anxiety is way more severe than I thought.
My anxiety wasn’t just caused by the things that have happened to me, it’s also genetic, meaning me having anxiety was unavoidable in the first place.
The tics I’ve been having turned out to be something my dad has as well (although more they’ve gotten more subtle over the years), and my insomnia turned out to be something my mom has had all her life.
Basically all my anxiety symptoms turned out to be genetic and just “something that runs in the family” as my dad puts it.
Why am I posting about this?
Because turns out my parents Knew about this.
They knew that I had gotten anxiety from both sides of the family.
And what did they do whenever I couldn’t sleep, or was having a panic attack, or was so nervous that I felt sick, or had an emotional episode, or started ticking/having tic attacks?
They Scolded Me For It.
They knew I had severe anxiety and that I had very obvious symptoms of it, but they scolded me whenever one of those symptoms took over me.
I’m fucking Pissed.
I don’t care if it was to “try and help me get over it naturally”. I was forced to think there was something wrong with me and how I act for years, only to find out I just have a mental illness that my parents knew about and hid from me that made me act out a ton.
Not to mention my parents are still saying I can’t have any medication for it even though it affects my everyday life and medication would probably really help.
Sometimes I don’t know why I still trust my parents...