(Don't upvote this and please for the love of all things gay, don't just ignore me because i'm getting tired of people not even acknowledging my vents)
Tw//sexual trauma (descriptions), swearing
I don't even understand how this even happened.
Back in kindergarten, I guess I was still recovering from my past trauma. My memory of this time is still a bit hazy but I can piece together basic things. Back in kindergarten, when I was still recovering from trauma, I had a tendency to be outwardly sexual.
It wasn't necessarily because I was sexually active at that age it was just because I had been in an environment where sexual stuff was just... normal for me. I thought that was normal.
There was this kid who I'll call L in my class. L was... well he was openly sexual like me. I'm not sure if he had any sexual trauma, but he was definitely sexual. And now I'm thinking back and I guess what happened between me and him was sexual abuse?
I never said no, but at the same time he did push me behind a table where a bunch of people started groping at me. Does that count as something? I mean... I agreed to it. In fact, sometimes I even initiated it but now thinking about the fact that I engaged in a semi-sexual relationship with L and his crew is just disgusting to me... I feel gross
Like... i just... i dont know. Is that trauma? Is that weird? I just don't get it.