My gender feels not binary but not nonbinary. It feels like a void traveling through time and space that no mortal human can truly describe. it feels like yes and no, it contradicts its self. It has a connection to fluidity and fluctuation but its off. It doesnt feel real but so real at the same time, it changes how it is perceived but it is always the same. It doesnt feel like its supposed to be there, it feels like it just came to be one day. It is my gender but it doesnt feel like my gender? It makes no sense to talk about but it is just there, there is no other way of putting it really.