That I kind of wish I was a system
But also don't
And also feel a bit like a system?
That I kind of wish I was a system
But also don't
And also feel a bit like a system?
Uhhhhh
Please don't. It's not fun. Not at all.
For 1 the majority of systems deal with intense dissociation which can be incredibly disabling on it's own. There's also the possibility of having headmates who hurt you or the body. For traumagenic systems (or even just systems with trauma) we have flashbacks. Traumatic memories can bleed through on accident.
Not to mention that we fight with each other. You trap 14 people in one body for 15 years and there's gonna be some heated arguments.
To be honest, I'm really starting to get upset with singlets who say they want to be a system because you really don't. It's not a game, it's mental health. /lu
That's not exactly what I meant, I should have phrased it differently
I don't know right now if I am or not
Sometimes I don't know if some pieces are just me talking to myself, and I'm making all this stuff up, or if the voices are real
I feel like a system but also don't
I'm sort of questioning?
But I wish it was one way or another and that I knew if I was or if I was not, which is what I meant when I said "I wish I was but also don't" which I phrased pretty badly
Like there are fragments of but I don't know if it's Sky talking to Sky or someone else talking to Sky or maybe something else
So I guess I'm questioning if I am
I would rather be 1 person in 1 body than multiple but I don't actually know which one it is
Don't say you want to be a system, that's rude and insensitive. It's not fun or cool to be a system, and even if you don't mean it in that way, please don't say that.
Edit: if the only reason you think youre system is "multiple personalities", i doubt you are /nm
Saying you want to be a system is pretty insensitive, regardless of intention.
It's perfectly natural to feel like "parts" of yourself are talking to each other via an internal monologue, it's something entirely different when those "parts" have their own feelings, likes, dislikes, roles, appearances, voices, quirks, etc. Every system is different, though.
I'd say that it's not very likely that you're a system, but then again you haven't been here long, I don't know you well, and I'm not a mental health professional. Probably not though - I would suggest doing more research.
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/neg
TW; This post includes: tr@m@, disorders ))
@Livikittenx I don’t think you wish to dissociate a lot, or to have really bad traumatic flashbacks. There’s likely some possible reasons why you’d like a system: You want companions, you want to be unique or something, you really want a mental illness, or you want attention.
So, instead of just telling you not to wish for it, I’m going to give you some really helpful solutions and resources ( All those little blue sections of text are links you can click on. )
If you want companions, you can make friends with actual people. Or, you can make imaginary friends. Make a Scratch account and join the Imaginary Friends Club, or use this Tumblr that was never used about drawing imaginary friends. Maybe you could make it really famous.
You CAN be unique without having a system. Systems are really hard to deal with, and being unique in that case isn’t worth it. I DON’T KNOW, learn to be ambidextrous!? Then you can hang out with this ambidextrous community. There, you’re already part of 1% of the world, and roughly 3% of the world has systems.
I hope this is entirely not a possible reason, but maybe you want a mental illness. That’s an indication of factitious disorder, so you might already have one.
If you want attention, get attention from something else. Be really impressive and get positive attention instead of pity.
Tell me if you can get the old unused imaginary friend Tumblr famous! :D
And please, I’d advise you not to wish a system. It’s just not worth it.
Can people read my reply please? I stated before that I don't wish I was a system, so please don't infer that I'm just a singlet that wants to be different. I'm just confused because I'm extremely forgetful to the point where people make fun of me for asking questions of what I did when and stuff, and that I don't really know how to explain this but there's this girl that kind of.. i don't know how to explain it but she's sort of there... Please don't call me rude and other things because I said I want to know if I'm A or B. Read my earlier reply before judging me and saying things about me? I know everyone's going to come at me again and say I can't be and that I'm not, so maybe it's just best to not post on this wiki. Don't call me dramatic but it kind of hurts that people are being critical. I didn't mean to offend anyone in any way with this post, nor did I mean to make people assume that I was a singlet that wished to be a system. I phrased it wrong and I'm sorry.
@Livikittenx I’m really sorry, I’ve been in a situation like this (except, not about systems) and I understand how bad it feels.
Also, that kind of sounds like a tulpa. Tuplas are harmless and fun, and almost anyone with patience can create one or realize that they have one.
What do you think?