i have toaster waffles n they're really good. my bangs!! are also a bit overgrown n they're so pretTy (>:CCCCC utYGIuoiOOJHGgr) n i feel very enbyish and i'm sad n i love people so muCh i can i just?? people. im going!! to happy-sad vent about people. ;A; haTh sunkeneden to new lows.
**ahim* tis the l onEly ;n; nU*
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i feel more energized than i have in a long, lonlonglong time. i just- people. people as a thingy, people as a species, we're just so sad n ugly n fragile n beautiful n impossibly fHJYFGF#DTfuyi loveable hh nd i- they just want love and so lonely and it hurts and they're so much more beautiful than many of them find themselves to be and so when they're trapped and sad nd upset n feel hopeless and unloveable it hurts so much and we're so much sadder and desparater than we think we are n we're all so sad and lonely an want to love and be loved and want expensive things for approval and want food for approval and want to be pretty for approval for love but so much hate nd i- beings. beings are so intense and so much more precious and beautiful n lovely than they find themselves to be, n so is their interaction with ourselves as we find eachother like longlost loves and friends n people. in general. just people. human!! connection!! is the ugliest and most beautiful thing i've seen. it's- that's it and it's sO INDESCRIBABLY BEAUTIFUL m I cAN't eNxPLanKADoouJKLIJ iT >:,CCC nd there are somethings you can't explain. i just- people people people people. they scare me. i am a people. and i think i scare me too. so much. all the pain but then all the love. i just want to make it better. so badly. but i'm klutzy and bad at it and stupid. just- veryvery completelyhH humans are- if i had to describe us, itwould be "lonely together." n pEOPLE YOU'RE SO LOVELILY STUPID JKHfg HHHHHhh ILU SO mUCH ;AA;;;;;;,,,,,, <3 but just. everyone. is sad. and it hurts very much a lot. but i want to help so badly. but i'm bad at it. but i love and fear people. n i - ;n;;;,,,,,,, *weird vague hand motions n crI i've listenend to too much music i just want us to be not lonely*
so!! in summation!!! i'm sad happy cri and i hve rice milk n waffles and ily. yes, you. mhm!! ("bUt am twisted n ugly nd unloveable and how could you ever ever love me-") me too but if i can stomach being inside of me n existing then nothing, nothing, no one could be unloveable. if i love- no one is unloveable. i promise. on myself and everything i believe n stand for. no one is unloveable.
*YGIGVCuh;n;;;;;;;,,,,* ok!! i'm done. i'm not done. be nice to people, ok?people are sad. you're sad. we care about all of us. be nice to yourself, too. <33333333 >:C