Also, this is mainly /nbh except for 1 or 2 users
I hate feeling used by people...
Most of my friends only come to me when they need me... They only care about me when it benefits them, and I am sick of it. I don't want to be some personal therapist, I don't want to be someone for people to vent to and to ignore when I try to start a normal conversation. And if I vent to them, they ignore me in favor of telling me all about their problems and issues because apparently they are more important
I know a lot of people want to be friends with me, and I know people like me. And if I am being honest the only reason I don't try to talk to people on here more often is because I am so used to people only being friends with me because it benefits them
My mental health has been crashing, and do you know what my friends tell me? That they have it worse. And that they 'wish they could help but they are too busy' or 'are too stressed out with their own stuff'. But when they need me to help them out, they vent to me and expect me to drop everything and fix them
And if I try to take a break and ignore them all, they tell me 'I need to vent to you' or 'can you help me out' or they spam me until I listen to whatever the fuck they have to complain about. I am so tired of it, I really just don't want this anymore... I have lost so many people because I take a mental health break and I apparently 'dont care anymore' because I stopped messaging for a week or 2 so I can help myself
My mental health was just starting to get better, and now I am on the verge of a breakdown and I am collapsing again. I just want someone real, someone who will listen to me and not use me
I want someone who will talk about completely random shit with me and talk about what I like sometimes. I want someone who will trust me enough to open up to me, but not expect me to fix their problems the second things go downhill on their end. I want someone who will help me out and let me help them out. I want something real for once