So uh even though its july and school doesnt start for another month or two im getting rlly scared, like i think i might have a slight school trigger. Because at the end of the school year i had to return a few school things and even though i knew i wasnt going in or going to school i still felt panicky and upset, like i did when i was still going. i felt like i might have a panic attack. I told my therapist about it and she said it was maybe a trauma trigger even though i didn't have any really traumatic events happen there, it just caused me anxiety and depression.
Another time i was out shopping somewhere and i saw a back to school sign (even though it’s july rn-) and i got the same panicky feeling. so yea i think i might sort of have a school trigger.
This is a problem because what am i going to do when i have to go back there? i rlly don’t want to but i have to. maybe if i had friends it would be better but i don’t so it’s awful for me, combined with everything else and my apparently worsening social anxiety. i’m rlly scared and idk if i’ll be able to handle it