(tw: f*amily, y*lling, hurting people, d*gs, self hate, swearing)
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I hate my fucking family sometimes. I have no idea why because they are nice to me and they accept me but sometimes i really fucking hate them. I hate everyone sometimes. Like when my mom is yelling and my sister is calling me a lazy assed bitch and my dog is barking and everyone hates me and i hate everyone and i just wish i could just fucking disappear, anything to get away from them. Every time my mom asks me to do something it feels like the weight of the entire world even if it's just doing the dishes. Sometimes i get so fucking frustrated with my sister when we fight that i want to physically harm her. Sometimes i just want to lie down and be alone but no, that is too fucking much to ask. My mom will yell at me and my sister will call me a lazy bitch and try to boss me around and she'll call me a hypocrite if i tell her to stop and then my mom will yell at us for arguing and take my phone away and hide it. I can't take mental health breaks because my mom will say that it's a "luxury" to be able to take a break and say "well that's very convenient for you" or "so you're content to make me do all the work" or "stop making excuses" or she'll twist my words around and make me feel stupid and wrong and then she'll say that she gets stressed too and still works because "if i took a break every time i was stressed we wouldn't have anything" then my sister will go "aww poor baby" and take my mom's side like she always does and make sarcastic and hurtful comments and i've started avoiding her because every little thing i do makes her snap at me and i just want it all to fucking stop i want them to go away it's loud it's awful it wont stop why cant they leave me alone
Edit: i had a fight with them and they were yelling at me i tried to tell them to stop they wouldnt they wouldnt i was crying abd my mom mocked me and ny sister mocked me and my mom made me lwave the house and im shakinh and crying why cant they shut up im sorry i said i hated you please please stop please i cant do thibs anymore i hate myself stop stop stop
Please can soemeone tell me ehat to do i dont want them to hate me please
Edit: oh god my mons ouside im scared she wont hurt me but what if she smashes my phone or yells at me and i have a p*nic attack and she wont stop please what do i do
Edit: its kinda over and my sister started screaming at me but i didnt feel anything. i feel nothing rn.
Btw its not always like this and it was my fault anyways. I did something wrong thats why they screamed at me.
Im sorry this was pointless im a bad person nobody reads my vents anyways im just stupid.