Tw//cussing, integration
Idk why, but the line "You seem to integrate so fucking well" in penelope scotts moonsickness hits really hard. As a system, I keep seeing other systems integrating and becoming functional, but we're still very dysfunctional. We still have total amnesia, poor communication, and at this point, I don't think full alters integrating is even possible for us. Maybe a few fragments, but I really don't think we have the option to integrate with each other right now.
The weird thing is that we don't even want to integrate. We're perfectly fine being a system, but there is a part of me that wants to be a singlet. I wish I didn't have to figure out where I was every time I come to the front, I wish I didn't have to figure out who I am all the time because I'm too dissociated to have a sense of identity. I just really wish I didn't have to deal with all of this.
-Shy (Ze/Hir)