Tw//family stuff, mental health problems
I know i'm only 15 and I have no reason to be thinking about things like this but I'm kinda wondering if I actually want kids one day. I used to say I didn't because I didn't like kids but maybe it's just because my experience with children was based around my cousin who's a bully raised by a narcissist. My half brother is way different. He's sweet and he makes you wanna snuggle him all the time and watch his horse videos.
But I'm also concerned about it because of mental illness. Not only are we a system, but I also have suspected BPD, along with ADHD, cPTSD and several eating disorders. I'm not sure that I'd even make a good dad if I tried and I don't want to be the kind of parent who's child hates them, nor do I want them to end up like me, but can I really be a good father with all of my problems??
Like I said, I'm only 15, I don't need to be thinking about this, it's something I'm wondering about.
-Shy (Ze/Hir)