Tw// body dysm*rphia, body in detail, the word naked, body image, very small mention of food, body comparison
If you have any advice please lmk I really need some /gen
I hate my body, especially my legs. I have stretch marks all over them including the back of my knee and I have a skin disorder called keratosis pilaris (you can look it up to understand better) where basically I have red rough bumps all over my legs and arms (some people have it on their face and... other areas) but I hate it. I feel self conscious all the time. I also have hip dips, rolls, and huge thighs (attractive on everyone else not attractive on me) I am also very insecure of my upper body. Everytime I look in the mirror naked I feel disgusted by what I see. my stomach isn't flat (yes having a gut is attractive on everyone else but for some reason not me) and I hate eating in public. But I can't help feeling so...gross by my own body. My br3asts are small so that doesn't help. Plus I have acne and I'm just so insecure of myself. I want a feminine body that is ideal for me. I want to have bigger br3asts. I want an hourglass figure. I don't want hip dips or stretch marks. I want a flatter stomach where i don't cover it with my arms.I have had friends ask me if I am cold because I'm covering my stomach from hating it (especially after I eat) But i want a more masculine face. No facial hair, but a nice sharp jawline. I want people to look at my body and go ¨yeah. pretty sure that's a girl¨ but look at my face and think ¨um. idk.¨ but i want to wear makeup where i look gender neutral. like if fem and masc had a baby that wasn't androgynous. I have so many friends who are just so handsome and beautiful in every way and I am constantly comparing myself to them. Idk what to do about it and I just feel like such crap all the time.