tw: mention of enbyphobia ableism exosexism
im considering leaving but i dont want to because i feel happy here. its just with all the recent "folkel" stuff i feel really bad for using the word because i thought i was doing a good thing but really i was not. same thing with censoring triggers i thought i was doing the right thing but i was making things hard to read and being ableist apparently. i didnt understand how lesbian men were a thing and i was exosexist. i just feel like i dont belong here sometimes, like everyone here is so much better than me and i feel bad for venting because so many other individuals have worse problems, not to mention my vents hardly get views probably because they're about small and stupid stuff compared to other individuals. i always worry about offending or hurting someone whenever i say anything. like i would be doing something that i thought was right (ex. not understanding lesbian men, censoring, use of the word "folkel") and then someone would make a post about it and i would feel guilty for being exosexist, (maybe) enbyphobic, ableist, because that's what some individuals said about some things i had been doing when i thought they were the right thing to do. wow i was so stupid. i am so stupid. i probably shouldn't even be here. i keep doing stupid things and making stupid vents and saying stupid stuff while i should probably just leave and stop invading this place.
/neg
note: this isn't directed at anyone specifically. i just feel out of place here and had to vent about it /gen
should this be be my last post here? or should i make a goodbye post? or should i stay? am i welcome here? /genq