I'm new to everything about this. Not only am I new to this wiki, but new to all things LGBTQ+. I'm going to start this off by saying that I am a girl and have always been one (is this called cis or something?). I am aware of what LGBTQ+ is and all the things it can mean, but now I feel like I'm starting to become a part of it. Is it normal to feel straight, but develop the rest of your sexuality later as you grow up? (I'm 15). I have always been straight. I have always been Christian. I had the stereotypical mindset about gays and stuff like that but I still loved everyone and never wished anyone harm. It wasn't until high school that I was surrounded by a new HUGE variety of people. I suddenly had my mind opened and started to see things in a way i never did before. But as the months went on, I kept seeing girls. Everywhere. BEAUTIFUL girls. I feel like I'm not so entirely straight anymore. Part of me sees girls like possible partners, and the other part of me is going crazy that I'm "betraying" my religion, and I know how absurd that sounds to some of you who aren't religious, so if I were to explain that to you I guess it's like I WANT to be straight without even considering religion at all, and I AM attracted deeply to boys like a regular person. Is it possible to be attracted to both genders, but like this:
Girls:
I don't want to marry a girl/I think girls are attractive/ I would be fine with a partner that isn't supposed to make it till marriage (which may be a very rude thing to the other girl but please be kind to me because I don't know a lot)/I would kiss one
Boys:
I prefer boys/I will marry a boy/ I want to have children and would like my kids to be related to me AND my partner/ I am more attracted to boys but still attracted to girls but not in a romantic way AS MUCH
So with all that in your heads, what I'm mainly asking is this:
Can you be attracted to boys and girls, but want to marry a man, still love girls yet not as much as boys yet still being attracted, or is this all just being straight?!?!?!
I accept any answers, and I really want a lot of people's feedback. I am aware that I may turn out to be some uncommon sexuality or simply straight. I'm fine with either one. Be kind to me please I'm still young and figuring myself out :)
PS: Is it okay to fully identify as female and go by she/her, but also have an extra pronoun that goes beyond she/he/they? (preferably more feminine)
THANK YOU SO MUCH HAVE A GOOD DAY, FOLKS!!!💕