So don't message us asking for help that we can't give anymore.
But I want to explain my thoughts on this.
By the way, I'm new. I like the name Katherine or Tommy :) You can use she/her pronouns for now.
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@Contie if you want to read. If you don't, I understand, it's very long. /lh /g
If anyone would like a TL;DR, please just read the phrases with stars around them. /g /npa
⭐Remus has been battling what we think is depression for a long time now; we recognized it around a month ago but it's probably been going on longer.⭐ He's had suicidal thoughts, he's wanted to just leave the system, and he's overall been in a terrible, terrible mood. Our mom said we should stop going on the Internet and we should just take a break and learn to appreciate life, but as many of you with depression and/or suicidal thoughts may know, that's not the easiest thing to do.
⭐We decided to see our partner Kat in real life today because of Remus's situation, and after a long motivational speech by I don't know who was fronting, I formed.
This exposition was important, I promise.⭐
Anyway, a while later we got a message from Contie. Obviously, from the title of this post, we were demoted. ⭐Now don't take this as a wrong way, don't take this like we're guilt tripping you or like we want our position back and will do anything and we're just so desperate because that's absolutely not the case. In the midst of ranting to Kat, I realized something I think we forgot about for a long while.⭐
As I was talking to Kat, I wondered, why did we start doing this?
It should have been something like because we wanted to make the wiki a better place, or because we wanted to give additional support to the already staff members. Instead, we did this because we wanted attention. We saw those badges near the profile pictures of staff members and realized that if we made something of ourselves... well, that's just it. We wouldn't just be another fish in the sea, we'd actually have a place here and people would notice if we were gone. ⭐We did this because we didn't have a purpose in our life, and we thought this would fill that void. We were wrong.⭐
I also thought about what we contributed as staff members. And I realized there wasn't much to brag about. We didn't really contribute to the projects at the staff members had in mind, like restructuring the Wiki or making new rules. We tried to, but we pretty much just stood by and watched. ⭐We did a lot of good, but there was also harm to level it out. We broke many rules, among that being fakeclaiming and shutting out the opinions of people who were obviously upset. And as I was saying, Remus broke a rule recently that he knew he was breaking. But he still did it.⭐
We did a lot of good, but like I said we didn't do that great of actually serving the wiki. ⭐We served ourselves and the individuals that we wanted to serve. And that is a true shame.⭐
But there is also something to note about this demotion. With all this in mind about why we started becoming staff members and why we did the things we did, I realized that we really did most of this stuff because we wanted a place in the world. ⭐We were in such a state of suffering that we didn't know what to do anymore and we thought this would give us a better purpose.⭐ Most of the time we spent on this wiki was because we felt like we were obligated to, or because we were addicted and didn't realize it. I noticed that a lot of previous staff members like Nemosexual, Clear.Skyes, PoisonVil, Demi Bi the River, and Cryptocrew have all quit because of the stress that was put on them as staff members, whether internally or from FANDOM users.
⭐This is not a job that we rely on to make a living and to keep doing the things we do. We weren't going to stay staff members forever and we needed to realize that. I'm sorry if we've disappointed any of you, or if any of you feel the need to DNI us. But I believe this happened for a reason, and I believe that we can change and become better individuals because of this.
I hope you enjoyed my thoughts on this and once again please do not come to us for any more staff member things. We're going to try to redeem ourselves but that does not mean that we will, and we'll still be typing quirk translators.⭐
Love you all,
~ Katherine