I broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years yesterday and i've been feeling really alone, like no one loves me anymore and I feel empty even though I'm surrounded with love and care, I just feel like it's not penetrating into my mind
And i'm having a ptsd episode because i was reminded of my mom getting with another guy after she and my dad divorced, it just reminds me of how my parents weren't meant to be
I also have to go back to my mom's house for a couple days
My dad doesn't know that she mentally and verbally abused and emotionally neglected me for most of my childhood and I really don't want to go back there
And I came out to my dad (he was very acceping of me) and came out to my mom (she was not) so now I get to be deadnamed for a week