I am extremely confused right now- plus I'm quite frustrated by that confusion.
So I made myself a kind of "conclusion" that I may not be demi-Pan toric BUT gay or poly- just not really bothered about pronouns
But I am not entirely sure- I say that because gender was not an issue for me, but I am not precisely attracted to females- I found more appealing visuals(?? sexual(?? on a masculine person or men (that's why I am questioning if I am even demi or if it's not just my preference)
And I am most likely confused because I've only got three partners on my life because- well crushes are not my thing at all- and also personal issues. And one of them was biologically female but genderfluid and I fell in love with them a lot- but there were some masculine aspects that I liked- (in the end they were transmasc as me and now I am MUCH MORE confused)
And another example of why my doubt is the fact that I don't feel the appealing either to really femenine boys nor a masculine woman
Like it really does feels I rather want a male partner instead of a woman- and I haven't felr comfortable with other labels- so right now I am saying that I am questioning but I took the gay mlm flag to feel comfort and it actually feels nice- but I don't know if this is correct
it has just been bothering me a lot this whole week-